So...I'm really bored and I thought of something fun to do when I was in the shower...not that...
I'm going to share a few embarrassing things that people probably don't know about me, some things I will leave out and I won't go to in detail with this but like i said I'm bored. Here goes;

1. I still sleep with a baby blanket at age 18 soon to be 19, probably because of an attachment disorder I suffered in infancy.

2. I get jealous easily.

3. I cry at least once or twice a month, mostly due to my period or watching something depressing on TV. Speaking of, I cried this morning watching the September 11 specials on the History Channel.

4. I have no self-esteem when it comes to my appearance.

5. I wash my face about three times a day and shower usually twice a day.

6. I can't go out of the house without makeup on anymore and I feel self-conscious hanging out with my friends too long when I have makeup on or off. I worry that having makeup on too long with give me more acne and I don't want people to see me without makeup.

6. I envy most of my friends.

7. I'm selfish and do things only to get attention. Ex. I clean the house to get my mom's praise.

8. This one is a little extreme and I'm not exactly sure how I would feel later in life. I wouldn't want a child that wasn't perfect.

9. I went through a boy stage, where I would have done anything to have been born a guy because I thought my biological father wouldn't have put me up for adoption.

10. I get angry with my brothers and some of my friends because they're related to at least one of their parents.

11. When my adopted parents first split up, I would get jealous of other children in school and would cry frequently.

12. I put up a tough front so people fear me and don't want to get close to me.

13. I struggled with having close friends for a long time and I get lonely easily now.

14. I worry constantly about the future and whether or not I'm pretty enough to get a good husband.

15. I would be happy being a stay-at-home wife and not working.

16. I cut myself three times and stopped myself from committing suicide.

17. I think religion and suicide are weak ways out of dealing with life.

18. I worry about my biological mother's husband finding me and killing me.

Wow...That was quite a bit longer than I thought I'd have...That's about all I can think of right now...Well if any of you think differently of me now, that's fine and I really don't care. Feel free to leave comments, thoughts, feelings, or your own embarrassing things you want to get off your chest.